A Personal interview

Really have to get used to living it out alone i presume ... yes, today is a weekend and I am not sure if I can use the word usual, but I guess just say I am stranded at home.

Question: "Why dont you just go out?"
Answer : "I would really love to, but I guess everyone's busy"
Question: "Where's everyone and what are they doing?"
Answer : "The answer lies in WHO is everybody, I reckon everyone is busy with life"
Question: "Why not you get a life like everyone else then?"
Answer : "If only I know what I want in life ... not just big cars, cash stacks"
Question: "You must be lonely, just get yourself a girlfriend like everyone else"
Answer : "Love is not a cure for lonliness, it'll be unfair for both parties"
Question: "Don't sound so miserable, comparatively, you are so much blessed than others"
Answer : "Thats a question I admit defeat, its the way I think, the things I interact and my SELFISH characteristic"

Handle a few exchange of words with my mum, still couldnt believe what I replied to her. Got to be the stress level of the exams I hope. But deep within, I know what will be worst ... it'll be the end of the exams. Must have been a curse, its been a year ... a year ago, I knew my greatest challenge was not the exam but the end of the exams itself. I doubt most will know what I am probing about, but who cares eh? I havent been really opening up to anyone ever since.... or have I ever tried before?

I am tired. Smiles ... true ones... frm the heart, I smile alot to myself always conjuring up cranky senarios to brighten up myself. I guess I talk too much to myself, maybe thats why I always complain alot of being lost and feeling lousy which in turn drift myself further away frm the crowds. Had interviewed many before on what are the stuff they do and concept of happy life. Answer: Car, Money, Girlfriend, Good Grades. Cant beat them join them? Shall see...as of now, cant wait for the lonely walk after the hell week(I wish this exam never ends, its true, you wont know how I feel).

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