Dogged by the Year of the Puppy

Within hours, the moon will complete another lunar year of successful orbit. Happy Chinese New year to everyone. Of course, new start, new wishes, new hopes right? For my case... I dare not comment. Just when I started to lose myself in work and labour of my temporary new found job, I stepped on landmine.

A figure of optimisium and strong resolute she carried, embossing an aura of grace and innocence(sometimes, I puke at my descriptions). Anyway, I think again was the hormonal kicking in lar.

Homosapiens are wierd spieces... especially equipped with emotions. For my case, its like to forget 1, have to get another objective. I am ashamed of this shortfall... but in order to mature, one will have to advance upon his fears and weakness.

With so much grumblings... what happened long sotry cut short: 2 guys A n B got to know 1 girl C, A got the looks and charms, B dunnoe what he lacks the fullstop is B fancy C but C got hooks for A. Solve the equation. Just love how engineers map their problems out.

The story can of course develop, but B's ego again hit a wall (previously ran over by lorry). Losing one's confidence even before entering the pitch. Always swimming agains the tides and playings games with all thy chips down. Can the skill of the glib be acquirred?

Nonetheless, I am enjoying what I've been picking up in the company! So much to see, so much to learn... mind boggling and mesmerizing algorithms of life.

Shake it off,
Bark it out,
Time to Learn...

PatriX

Time to take eyes off YOU

Finally a start to the new academic year 3 / semester 2 at Bossard. Today was my first day of internship at the company and I am glad to say I find myself anticipative to get my engines warmed up and raring to spur on. Had an insight on how the nut and bolt busniess fuel the swiss medium sized company. A good amt of exposure on the nitty grittys, idealogies and strategies that can be taken and enforced to get their accounts to remain on the black.

Getting back to the title... there was a person whom I always peeled my eyes whenever I cross the premises of clementi center. Any avid readers will surely remember the times where I TRY to use bombastic, explict and horrendous vocab which i normally lift frm dictionary.com. I had a post of that particular girl that swept me off my feet, A crush? A dream? whatever...

Signs. Have you ever got into a situation, incident or happenings that felt rather uncanny? Uncanny in a sense as though it seems to be implying on other issues or thoughts that had been revolving around. E.g. You plan to swim the next morning but u see the red skies during the evening, overheard the news from ur room there's thunderstorms over the regions then with a turn of ur view sees ur brolly or raincoat in front of you. I had my fair shares of signs too! Looking back, brings in a few chuckle... yes, my best topic that have been hounding Girls.

Whatelse can trigger such a corny title? As I was saying, I got my fair shares of signs... good or bad, you tell me. Long story cut short... this time, its not those sudden surge of tetestrone that trigger the "I want a girlfriend" syndrom, more like "I have too much time during holidays, how about a date" situations. OK! I admit of course got take fancy otherwise in the first place who will "jio" their nightmare out, correct? But anyway, just dates lar. In soccer jargon, I hit the a hat trick of 'tiang' (woodwork)! For non soccer fans or people who dont understand me(which contributes to the majority) I got flew kite 3 times for dates.

Blame it on the bad time and space for all the allocated timings of appointments... or so on the face? Hahaha, its a sign! Anyway, yesterday... I saw the "cant take my eyes off YOU" girl at settlers' cafe. She was with her male counterpart which she could take her mind off for so many years. I guess he has the X-factor, the super star look, the charisma of a snake charmer... call it losers' denial but HOW COME I LOSE?! Wasnt even given a chance to start with... feels like losing from match forfiet due to bad weather? FATED!

The "showdown" confirmed my doubts of my dream still holding on to HER dream guy, so its time I woke up from MY dream. To set my sights off other pastures and I am not stating other prospective female targets(rem the hat trick of cancelled dates).

What the sign holds, I dont know...
What lies in store, dont really know at all
Lost to a face of dash, my pride took a crash
Though my confidence took a dive, its time to get back my life

Rainbows are beaus of aftermaths, meanwhile just have to deal with the rain

PatriX

Another kind of Orchard

Not those flower cultivating or decorative bonsai but the familar Orchard Road youngsters stride along in town. With the hottest fashion wear (army camoe wear? And I hear so much complains abt the army) wearing those bling bling of theirs' ranging in groups of 2 to 30(IRC channel #teens outing?) they contribute to the human traffic and congest the streets with their chattering, antics and most recently their foam sprays.

Today, mummy's boy went to the Aunties' Orchard. I can tell you the amount of cash exchanging hands at Tiong Bahru Market will not lose out to the fashion boutiques unless you bring in those insane pricings of BRANDED fashion. Assorted fashion were on displays, from blouse, pants, skirts to scotch brit spounges... you name it, you got it.

Even with the rain pouring since Sunday for a 2 sun-less day... spirits were high, bargaining rampant and the preperations for the festive celebrations building up. When was the last time anyone took time off and really went shopping with your parents? Many may just jeer upon me as a loser without a date, still tied to apron strings thats their opinion and you chaps can burn in hell for all I care too.

There's been quite alot in my head these days and I find it rather difficult to express myself too... or more like who cares? This blog serves more like a personal diary for my remeberance sake where interested party can get a few update of me like whether I'm still alive or bitter abt life.

Reflections, have been doing alot of references within myself and held myself to resolutions for improvements. 1/4 of a century I have resided... what has been acheived ? What's been lost? What is to be achieved? What will be lost?

You'll never know

PatriX

LEAVEing a joyful note

A long anticipated 2 week holiday has finally arrived after a 3 year wait(I aint joking, it had been 3 years since I had a decent holiday). You know, when someone had been used to living the hectic schedules, with his life packed end to end... ups and down following one another a break is equilavent to an emergency brake for me.

Anyway, my break started as a filial son doubling up as a Personal Assistant for my parents to Penang. Challenging task it was for one to be the photographer, babysitter, caretaker and logistic dept all at 1 single time for everyone for the 3 day 2 night. What made it easy was like we had 24 hours / 2 trips on the bus, which also turned out to be the wort travelling I have done in my life. Every pit stop was a well earned break. Could see all the aunties rushin for the loo and lining up. These are the times when having the male anatomy is a great asset, E-spring squeeze trigger and done!

Fresh air, great food, row after rows of oil palms shouldering behind were the mountainous ranges with fluffy cotton candied clouds hiding the peaks... Most impt, I found a sense of belonging of kinship. What I lack frm the Chee side, I get it frm the Lee side and I am proud of it!!! Although with aunties and uncles, I like mingling with them! Those no hold bars conversation, everyone so at ease... thats what a family ought to be!

2 weeks of undisturbed rest. Carefree and easy, for the first time, anyone who rings me or messages me will get my undivided attention and almost immediate Y.E.S for outings! (including breakfast frm MUM) No plannings, no hassle... so surreal so unreal, really didnt felt like myself.

Settler's cafe became like second home.... twice in 4 days? Really enjoyed every moment in there! The screams and laughters... indulging in childish bickering and senseless bitching, for a while a 25 year old was behaving like 5 instead. Totally loved it! My Xiao Di/ Ying Kai, Buddy/ Kaiwei, Tiger beer uncle/ Calvin, Queen/ Eng Teck and Bed 8/ Chris you guys made my WEEK.

Basking in euphoria... words simpily cannot describe what I saw and felt. Let me pen down my final statement by having a new year resolution (which most of the time never come true for majority)

Patience is one of the key virutes to success... I dont crave for success but for recognition, I dont yearn for statues yet for glances. 1 word, Patience

PatriX