结果并不是最重要，而是要有争取过！

It aint over yet till the fat lady sings, but what happens eventually when the curtains are drawn and the verdict is passed? Given the revealation of the outcome would never be the positive one that you are looking for, how logical is it to continue venture upon it?

In this result oriented environment, the figures will eventually be in the red or black, Yes or No, Pass or Fail, Good or Bad. Thats how we are trained and taught since our younger days and also its how the rat race works too.

Alas, not everything can be judged and scaled accordingly. Different individuals emboss different emphasis on different areas.

I am a rational person. Never had I put myself into situations which the eventual outcome is a dead end. Yet recently I reminded myself of another trait of mine. Decisions are made instantanously and its various factors that clouds the judgements and impede on the smooth decision making process. The book I read, "The power of thinking, without thinking". It totally proved this point of mine which I realised ever since my younger days.

I know I am faced with a unfruitful end, yet the decision is made to press onwards. Aint it an irony? The rational part of me critisizes and condemn, but the emotional side motivates me towards doom. Really leaves me with laughs at times.

Call it hanging on "Hope", call it relentless determination, but I judge my actions as immature and totally irrational. That is the real me =) The bottom line:

结果并不是最重要，而是要有争取过!
不在乎天长地久，我宁愿根本没有。
No regrets.

Waiting for the bad news,

pat